Monday, January 26

 
A little of bit of ------ (edited)...and a little bit of me...

It's disheartening when it dawns upon you that your parents arent supportive of your intended career path. I realised that yesterday.

The family is back from Malaysia after a 4D3N hiatus from Singapore...not that i was lookin forward to their returnin...i cant say for the most of u ppl out there...but with my parents...it's like Lord of the House: Return of the Nightmare...more nags...more belittlin...more wishy washy dilly dally around me...

They came home with interestin anecdotes from my cousins across the Causeway...i only get to see them once a year...so every year it's the same old same old...you know how it is with the ppl of Malaysia...they've never been to a big modernized city...when some of them visited us a couple of years back i guess my behavior must have shocked them...

Anyway they were curious as to what im currently doin...i guess Ken would have willingly obliged them...though we dont always get along...we are afterall studyin in the same field...and he has been very supportive of my work...my parents though...have always kept mom bout it...i never really bothered myself to ask them what they thought...but i got a first hand impression yesterday...they didnt seem too keen on my writin...yes they acknowledged i was very talented and outspoken...but they think i'd be better off livin the outside world...you know...meetin ppl...pounding the streets...scalin new heights in the economic ladder...

My parents are subscribers of the old school of "CEOs, Engineers, Doctors and Lawyers"...my mom has never failed to criticise my failure to graduate from a local Polytechnic...that...to her...is my one-way ticket to stardom...despite repeated denials she's always proved to be the biggest hypocrite...she's very ashamed of her son's failure and ability to cause more heartache for the family...ive not heard her mention once how proud she is of my other 'lesser known' achievements...whereas Ken gets all the accolades...i mean...he's the shining star of the household...ACS boy through and through...NUS grad-soon-to-be...and a fillial son and loyal boyfriend...

I can so see Ken's future...it doesnt take a genius to figure it out...heck a poodle would see it comin...he's gona marry at 30...live in a 5-room flat...drive a Japanese car...have 2 kids...and go for a family holiday once a year...well yeah...sounds cool to most Singaporeans...but not to me...ive never believed in this mantra of success...Ken's gona spend his whole life payin off a loan to the government...worryin bout monthly pay-offs...restrictin his God given right to practice individual rights and speech...wallowin himself in a confined world where the leader is always right and we're the minions pacified to silence...forever the laughing stock of the outside world...slowly disappearin into oblivion...

I have a Danish friend who's...ehm..livin in Denmark..lol...he's from the big city lights of Copenhagen...and once over MSN he told me how he heard some insidious and snide remarks about Singapore from the local jock over the national radio...the DJ had visited Singapore and wasnt too impressed with what he saw...i guess he must have spent a substantial amount of time here...coz the inital impression Singapore gives to foreigners is always the same...."Oh it's clean and green"...STFU u foreign trolls...how bout u part the dense green foliage and uncover the mystery of our Government before you give our 2 cents worth...anyway the Dj went back home to Copenhagen...and openly spoke about the way Singapore is governed...and yes...Michael Fay was mentioned...so was the ban on chewin gum...and how us Singaporeans are used as pawns on this big battlefield...the response from the radio call-ins was quite hilarious...i dont know exactly what conversations were conducted over the air-waves...but from what i heard from my Danish friend...it wasnt too flatterin to say the least...

I was online with Edna a couple of days back...she's an officer in the Air Force...and we're just chattin bout our CNY escapades...somehow the conversation got intense as our beloved -------- (edited) government was mentioned...and i got into ------- (edited) mode and started tellin Edna how ---------------- (edited) where money talks and yada yada...it wasnt the conversation that riled me...but the simple fact that Edna....as a civil servant from our most embarassin -----(edited)...immediately got defensive and decided to back down from the conversation that was quickly becomin political...she refused to talk about --------- (edited) and claimed that it wasnt nice to talk about ------------ (edited) despite of our grievances...i was appalled...Edna makes up an overwhelmingly majority of Singaporeans who either a) choose not to talk bout politics coz they're afraid of being heard.... b) dont know a rat's ass bout the government so choosin to be a shrinkin violet instead....or c) all of the above...I wished Singaporeans would be more forth-coming and vocal bout the political scene here...yes not enough young adults or teens care about politics....but even if you dont...why are you so afraid to speak up in private chat...much less in the public??? Singaporeans are a sheltered lot...and as far as ----- (edited) provides what they want...they'll always be happy with the ---------- (edited)...

Im embarassed to call myself a Singaporean...and always sell myself as 'someone from the other side of the world' when im online...it's downright hypocrisy when u ----------------------------------------------------- (edited)...and somehow ----- (edited) always gets the swing vote...walkovers are common...and when the situation is grave...we've our affable ------- (edited) takin on Cheng San voters and declarin part of Serangoon New Town a MARINE PARADE GRC....LOL cmon ---- (edited)...--------------------------- (edited) $5000 pair of shoes...u can fool most Singaporeans...they're silly enough to believe ------ (edited) ideology...but you cannot fool me...ya never gona get my vote...

This thread serves no purpose now...im gettin angry just thinkin bout -------- (edited)...our youths are our future...yet all i see is a bleak and gloomy light down the tunnel...as long as community rights and 'family and ancestors' precedes individual rights and speech...i can see the next generation of Singaporeans...MY GENERATION...continuin this bubble of lies that's never gona burst...

Good luck to you Singaporeans...my heart goes out to you ----- (edited)...

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